18th months of love

for every time our lips meet, i'm so carelessly flying up in paradise
heart beginning to skip beats as i can't help but close these eyes
lingering in your soft embrace as tender kisses are sweetly shared
who'd have known this feeling between us could never be compared
no more sorrow to be felt, there's no more tear-stained desperate eyes
no more empty nights sat up alone, there's no room for saddened cries
in the most sweetest way it seems my heart's being slowly overpowered
left only with joy and happiness, all fear and hurt been devoured
thought people existed to hurt one another, know now i was wrong
tender, protective loving ways have shown me exactly where i belong
shown me love, adoration; so many emotions growing up i was denied
forever be eternally grateful, got me wishing to never leave your side
and i know that each time i try to tell you how you got me feeling inside
no amount of words, or i love you, could ever do justice or fully describe just how i'm coming to love and adore you more with every passing day
so all i can do is promise to cherish you, your love i'll never betray
i love you, leanne baby <3

smiles are just pretendence of sorrows

i’m clueless. everything needs money. fearing for my life. doesn’t amuse me. thinking about dying. doesn’t make me happy. as everyday passes, i can't help but feel crappy. i hate having to hide my feelings. but nobody gets it. torturing myself isn't fun. i wish that i could just run. i don't understand why this happens. and i don't know how to take it all in. there're things that people don't understand. probably never will. sometimes it feels like time stands still. probably no one would even notice this. when the time comes, then probably you people would notice. i don't know the words to say, they used to come so naturally. sometimes i think i’ll do it. having found the courage to die. though deep inside i know i’ll fail, but for some reason, i still try. i don't think i can feel. it no longer hurts to cut across my vein. i just wish i could relieve this pressure that keeps building up inside my chest. i am so fed up with myself, nothing i say really make sense.

you'll always be a part of me

i often ask myself a question, "what would my life be without you?" how would i survive one single day without seeing your smile? or to wake up each morning without hearing the one voice that captivates me? it saddens me to think i would not feel your comforting arms holding me close to you. for as long as i live and breathe, there is so much about you i simply will never forget, thus i have been looking at our pictures oftenly to reminiscing the past. the way my whole body cries out for you whenever you are away or standing near to me to listen as you excitedly remember something insignificant or of greater importance. baby, i tell you now, without you i would be utterly lost and my world would end. the day you came into my life the sky was of the brightest blue and the day so clear. it was as though everything else had lost it's importance. i felt so humble to be with you, since those early times you have made me look forward to each day as it arrives. knowing with you by my side we will face the future with love and with confidence. i guess all that i am trying to say is, baby, i really do love you!

happy sweet two hundreds and sixty four days, sweetheart.

saturdayyyyyy

life is a struggle if you did not know that. baby's been so busy so much so that i've spotted small pimples on her face. she must be really stressed out but then again, i know she can cope with her studies because she's an abnormal girl. this month's been rather hectic. i've been real busy lately checking out new schools and courses for my dip. looking at my achievement now in school. though i think i did pretty well in school ( did i tell you that i just received third letter from my section head? which i've to appeal for it in order to take my exams HAHA ), i've come to realised that engineering is not my niche as i progress. thus, i have to start planning ahead.

watch out this space for more updates, mates!

happy sweet honey chocolate 8th month baby!

we've been so happy, sometimes depressed.

unconsciously i might have hurt you, you might have hurt me.

you have forgave me in silence and i have forgiven you.
you know i always love you,
that’s why we’re able to go through the good and the bad times together.

we made each other happy, we are going to endure this.

i love you and i know you love me.

we will stand the tests ahead, because we love each other.

i have nothing but you,

and i truly treasure the times we share.
My love for you has never fade but it grew stronger.we have surpassed a test of faithfulness.

the hope of a promising future lives on.

i hearts you, my cucumbergirl <3

be merry, that's all i have to say =D

rant rant rant

damn depressing
i feel so suffocated
everything we talk about is money now
no moolah no talk
it makes sense isn't it ?
what if i tell you that i'm gonna grab this pair of awesome jeans for a cool 1k price tag,
but you have no money and yet you still have to listen to me
damn depressing isn't it ?
damn, life is such a struggle without moolah
moolah do wonders, man

i want to save moolah so i can have more moolah and won't feel depressing. at least not so fucking depressing like now. you god damn it. is sunday, mind you. let me whine! arghhhh

finally!

hey baby!
i can't wait to see you tmr!
i miss you badly!
arghhhhhhhhh!
one day of not seeing you is already madness. what more for six days?
tmr come fast!
i want to give you big hug man!
i love you baby <3